Merp Haven’t been on Tumblr in forever; have been busy waiting until the last day to do summer school assignments and feeling super anxious during the time which I was procrastinating my assignments. Also watching how i met your mother and reading an awesome serious of books called the Demon Cycle. Highly recommend it to people who enjoy fantasy books! Science fiction is still my favorite genre along with dystopian novels ( is that a sub genre of science-fiction or it’s own genre or what?) but fantasy is so good too.. this internal dilemma about what my favorite genre of books is is throwing my whole life into question…:0 But Hello Tumblr world again I have missed you! Was about to make a joke about the majority of the type of people who are on tumblr but thought it might be offensive and also I fall into the clinical depression and anxiety category haha damn I’d rather be in the girls with eating disorders category >:( maybe. Idk though because I don’t have the self-will needed to sustain an eating disorder… I’ve tried for like two days before. Is it considered an eating disorder if you work out for like 2-3 hours a day but eat normally? I’ve been through that phase before few times haha and got in super awesome shape. I think being toned and thin is so much sexier than just being skinny. Which right now i’m pretty skinny but in not great shape and one of my goals is to get into shape again. I did crunches a couple days ago trying to show my boyfriend I could do more than him and the next day my abs were so sore. It was pathetic haha Another new goal of mine is to journal in order to work through all my emotional issues but I go on rants and skip around quite a bit… blame it on the ADD.
And no one is going to read this so I feel like it’s safe to ramble on about nothing haha
I don’t wake up and love myself
I have never loved my life
but the rest I don’t ever feel
I once thought liking my appearance would fix everything and make me happy, but for the past 4 years I have been fine with it and am still not okay
I don’t think I will ever get better
if only my parents would stop considering it just laziness and being a bad person in general.
meh i want it to end gawddd
dude, me in high school what, #abercrombiewhitejeanskirt??@!